Why can I barely feel the warm glow within me
That others see so clearly?
My motivation starts as a burst of flames,
Then simmers into nothing.

No matter how much I try to control it,
My mind escapes from its cage.
Wasting time thinking is as helpful
As judging a book before opening its page.

I gaze at the world around me
And so far im not impressed.
Closed minded, colorless people,
Content with conventional happiness.

But I am no better than the others
And perhaps I am the one to blame
Still searching for my never-ending passion
While expecting others to make a change.

Why should they?
My journey is never done.
This life of drifting intuitions
Isn’t meant for everyone.

FREEDOM

I don’t want a stable life. I want a happy life. Not that stability and happiness cant coexist but It seems like people are so afraid to think or do against the norm that they work for what they think they want and not what they feel they want. Just floating through life. I would rather suffer and struggle for a goal that I want to achieve rather than suffer and struggle just because. Five to ten years from now, if I have the biggest smile on my face, and have had some of the best experiences of my life, I would be content and comfortable. Why do I need a lot of money to validate that? If I love what I do, money will come. Of course sometimes your happiness and wants have to be pushed aside for certain reasons. But when you are 19, have no children, no husband, and no other obligations there are not as many reasons. You have the time to focus on yourself. Isn’t that what this time is for…?